Recently, I read this blog post. Take a moment and read it. Here's the part that stuck out to me:
I always thought that some day—when I finally stop failing—I will become smaller, and when I become smaller literally everything will get better (I've heard It Gets Better)! My life can begin! I will get the clothes that I want, the job that I want, the love that I want. It will be great!
I haven't necessarily had these feelings regarding weight loss but reading this post made me realize that I had put my life in a holding pattern.
I'm a 24-year-old college graduate. I graduated with a degree in Biology from a small private Christian University at a time when unemployment levels were skyrocketing. I wasn't ready to go straight to graduate school so I temporarily moved back home with my parents while I applied for jobs in my field. Fast forward two years, I still live with my parents and now I work with them too. I'm working part-time doing the accounting/book-keeping for the family business, which is most definitely not a job in my field. I started applying for graduate programs last year and have become adjusted to not being able to plan past the next August/September. This means that I've been unable to plan more than a year in advance: no traveling for dancing, no pre-planning for out of town Steampunk events, no long-term commitments, and lots of hesitation.
This Fall, I decided to change the direction that I wanted to take my graduate school education. My previous planning has come unraveled. This change is a good thing and will almost certainly make me happier than my original intentions but it leaves me feeling under-prepared. My new program of choice, Genetic Counseling, has some additional requirements compared to the life of Academia I had previously desired. Given the new requirements, I have chosen to take this year off of Graduate School applications and improve my qualifications for genetic counseling programs. This leaves me in a novel position: I can now plan almost two years ahead. I can get out of this holding pattern that I put myself into and live more intentionally.
Things that will be changing:
- A New Church Home- I'm picky so this could take some time
- Classes!- Statistics, Counseling and maybe a language refresher or two
- Volunteer work- hopefully something with an advocacy component
- Job Shadowing with a Genetic Counselor
It's time for me to accept who I am and what my life is like. If I can accept and embrace who I am then I can move forward and be happy.
With these things in mind, this blog is going to change quite a bit. There will still be posts about weight loss and recipes because I do want to live a healthier life. However, there will also be posts about things that are weighing on my mind.
You can expect to see:
- My Experiences Church Shopping
- Various thoughts on Religion, Christianity and Spirituality
- Updates on my Path towards Graduate School
- Anything else weighing on my mind